don't choose a one hit wonder

for the best Meme ever....

Using only song titles from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions...
Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think!
Repost as "my life according to (band name)"


PICK YOUR ARTIST:
Field Commander Cohen

ARE YOU MALE OR FEMALE:
You Know Who I am

DESCRIBE YOURSELF:
Winter Lady

HOW DO YOU FEEL:
Like a Bird on a Wire

DESCRIBE WHERE YOU CURRENTLY LIVE:
Is This What You Wanted?

IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD YOU GO:
Boogie Street

YOUR FAVORITE FORM OF TRANSPORTATION:
By the Rivers Dark

YOUR BEST FRIEND IS:
There For You

YOU AND YOUR BEST FRIENDS ARE:
The Land of Plenty

WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE:
Light as the Breeze

FAVORITE TIME OF DAY:
Tonight Will Be Fine

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A TV SHOW, IT WOULD BE CALLED:
A Bunch of Lonesome Heroes

WHAT IS LIFE TO YOU:
Coming Back to You

YOUR CURRENT RELATIONSHIP:
Dance Me to the End of Love

YOUR FEAR:
Here It Is….

A FOND MEMORY:
Blessed is the Memory.

WHAT IS THE BEST ADVICE YOU HAVE TO GIVE:
Don’t Go Home With Your Hard-on

THOUGHT FOR THE DAY:
Ain’t No Cure for Love

HOW WOULD YOU LIKE TO DIE?
In My Secret Life

YOUR SOUL'S PRESENT CONDITION:
Take This Longing

MOST FAITHFUL COMPANION:
Heart With No Companion

YOUR MOTTO:
Everybody Knows.

i just got home from fraternizing with an online media mogul...

 Maybe you saw the clip and maybe you didn't....the holidays are a busy time.... understandable.   But he got a bit famous and i got to hobnob for a couple days....

but the response was amazing (http://www.respect-a-bull.com/)....the public's at large, and Stanley's.  But...the holidays are over and as we get back to our daily lives, let's remember that place in our hearts that wants to make all the difference to somebody, something, in some way....doesn't have to be dogs.  Although they are fuzzy and warm.  And many still linger in shelters, just like Stanley.

You all know what makes your own heart beat fierce.....and maybe if we all do just one thing that embraces that thing....we'd all be living in a better place.

love,

in whatever capacity,  will be what saves us all.

 

bridging the gap

so to speak....

i can't even remember where i found this moment...on a dogwalk, for sure...maybe along a trail i trail i don't normally follow.  the thing is...there are so many of these moments left on the camera's memory...i take the photos but do nothing with them. i notice the moments but can't be bothered to share...

so 

my head isn't working right...nothing new.

meds aren't working right...

but??? the moments are still there and i recognize them. i still love them. but just can't share them. 

i don't know how to explain that to the folks who worry for me...but seriously? just because i don't have words? that means nothing....

i never had have words....didn't you ever notice?

does the fact that know and understand THIS mean that i am truly Canandian?

I hope so...cuzi don't know many Americans who know who either of these Canadian icons are...their loss, for sure.

hey, now....it's a new year....

and though i don't know what that is supposed to mean, i am more than willing to let go of 2009. it's had it's highlights...saw two living legends and lyrical heroes of mine in one year, John Prine and Leonard Cohen.  triumphant happening among friends, children welcomed, homes bought, lessons learned, lives lived and loved.... visits, the junos, a mexican vacation, a whirlwind of selling and buying homes....

i haven't been around though, and now it seems Blogger is offended as i cannot move my text in between each photo!

  well...not without much trial and error...but maybe it's the computer(a mac) or maybe it's just my own rustiness....

speaking of rustiness...how do you like those photos?  first i have taken(more or less) in a good long while... the meds worked a while, then didn't work in a big bad way...more on that later... now i am on minimal dose, waiting to see a head doctor....who will probably, for all intents and purposes declare me "clinically depressed(which honestly won't shock me)" and try prescribing other things...but, here i am, clinical and all, taking some photos again.

and it's not like i think where i am is good but it's more like me....maybe not the depression part, but the looking for little things part.  i don't know if it's because it is a new year and 2009 was not brilliant for me....i don't know if it's that december has always had it's issues, now more than ever...i don't know if today was just a really good day for me....

but i went on this walk today and suddenly i found that i wanted to share it all with you again.

So, goodbye to 2009.  although you gave me some good gifts that i will love and appreciate always , all in all, you kinda hurt. and i'm glad we're done. bu-bye!

Ratz

i was hoping that my bah humbuggeyness would subside....it hasn't.  i was hoping things would look new and exciting as this month drew to a close...they don't.  but there is still a new year on the horizon.  i am absolutely aching for change, for peace, for a sounder sense of self.  

Aren't you?

2009 was harder than most. 

right? 

what i hope for is a better year in 2010.   don't care about Whistler Olympics or Rah-Rah- Go Bristish Columbia.  what i hope for in this coming year is this....that we all find firmer footing, that we all remember everything/everyone that has graced our lives.  What i hope for for the coming year is this...somewhere, somehow, we all find that balance that we seek... in spite of outside forces, in spite of inner dialogue....

we deserve it.

so, my friends...

truly, let's make sure we strive to make this our best year ever...

talk to you soon, eh?

my name in print

despite my many negative feelings about December; every horrible holiday experience experienced coming up in every dream, the many December/January losses(some really fresh and others long simmering), the longlonglong days of grey, the days of waking up in the dark and going to bed in the dark, my own self-diagnosis of Seasonal Affective Disorder(which may be heralded if the freaking intake nurse at Mental Health would ever return my call, hello???? )...i have had a couple, or three, break-throughs in my gloominess.... still holiday Grinchy.....don't get me wrong there.  This will always be a tough sell month for celebration for me.  I will go into that  with the intake nurse, if i can ever get a hold of them...(that's you, Nancy!).

This month, despite many, many weeks of not taking a single picture(of feeling there was nothing worth recording on my end), i have had three successes....i have one photo in a Canada province-wide magazine on fishing, of all things.

(i don't fish, though).  

I have a photo being printed for greeting cards, all the proceeds of which go to getting animals rescued and adopted.  I have a photo(of the same rascally dog) being published for a training pamphlet/online course to teach police officers  across the US and the public about the horrible crime of dog-fighting rings.....maybe you all know Marley...if not....http://www.flickr.com/photos/59041131@N00/3681946835/ follow all links... his story will make your heart both break and re-invent itself....truly.

 I love him...it's not the first time i have written about him....if this is your first read, then let me introduce him to you...http://www.flickr.com/photos/59041131@N00/3681946835/ 

So, funny enough...it's been a long time i haven't felt like i have contributed a thing....and now, it's Christmas Eve, and I find that this night, of all nights, i might make some small difference.  it's good. it feels good. 

i do love to find moments that no one else does.

although i mostly doubt anyone finds those moments when i find find them....this time, this most precious time of my life, i have been proved wrong.  

i love those moments.

i love dogs. and these moments.

i love that i made some impact.  however small.

and so, with that small statement of gratitude, even if you don't know what the past year of my life has meant( in all the greater and lesser degrees, and assuredly NOT  in comparison with yours, for i make no comparisons of high times or low times(we all deal with our own times/experiences/phobias/stressors in our own way, in our time)), i have been/ am/ will be/ forever thankful of your input, your participation, your available input and advice, your insight into my life, your guidance, your intuitiveness.

i have not been here much lately, in words or posts....but i have been here...listening....learning... trying to accept your friendships, your input, your advice...

Peace on Earth, my friends.  

And prayers for our most fulfilling year to come.

Merry Christmas

Dylan

 one year ago today....we, the collective we of all who knew and loved him as well as those denied that honour, lost someone most treasured. as kids, we called him Pickle. An especially humbuggy year for me, imagine that today, one year later, i find myself looking at this christmas ornament...love is never lost.

Dearest Pickle....we love and miss you so.

Peace everlasting.

hey, y'all....

how the hell are ya????
seriously?
yeah, i have been gone a while...and not sure i am "officially" back...but, today has been a beautiful day, blue skies, no rain, warm enough for two layers instead of four and dry enough for no rain gear....
the new hood is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo quiet.....we're still not unpacked, we moved in while we were both sick...me? i still have a fabulous chest cough once in a while, though am able to contain it until moments i am alone. as long as i don't squeal or grow pink curly tail, i consider myself lucky. i wanted to be in touch sooner but things have been....um....chaotic, at the least.
we moved in at a time that Nanaimo was flooding....flood warnings everywhere....weeks of rain, the ground could not absorb it all....which is WEIRD in a place designed to take in rain....we, here on the west coast, are considered a temperate rainforest, after all. we moved in here in a time of great personal reflection on both parts...which leads to other things....
the house is small in consideration of the last...has caused some issues with furniture and hand me downs and bric-a-brac.... we have argued. my meds are creating issues. his moods create issues. the up and down and here and about and what comes next creates issues.
but? this is a lovely house....and for the past two weeks or so, i walk eem-er every day throughout this new hood, not worried about encountering situations that i have no patience for.
i have already established a route past a few of my favourite little houses...yes, little houses here, bungalows, cabins, what you will. also, i let eem-er follow her own nose on these walks and have come across such suprising places around here, wandering indiscrinately back and forth, block by block....
so yeah, as i say, i don't whether i am back "back" or just back in a flash.....
still kicking
though
hope you all are,too

move in day is tomorrow....

but i saw this today and couldn't wait...



we'll talk soon,eh?

i think i'm happy

it'll be some time to get back to you...
we sold our house...without another to move into right away...our household is in storage and in about 4 days, the computer will be, too. we found another place but it isn't available right now.
we're moving to a quiet street, to a quiet house, a tiny house(we must then get rid of much our accumulated clutter, thank goodness), with a private yard....and though i know it's too early to say such things, i do believe we're gonna be alright...that everything is going to be alright. we are making plans...life affirming plans...together.
despite the coming month of homelessness starting(EEK) Saturday....
so look for an update late-ish November....until then, take good care.
and, in case you were wondering? we are STILL going to see John Prine saturday night...are you jealous?

is anybody still here with me???

Yeah, i know, i haven't been around...haven't posted, haven't commented....although the summer has been beyond gorgeous(with plenty of times for swims and camping), and i have participated in some of it.... mostly, this summer, has made me more miserable than any grey and wet and windy fall and winter ever has. In the past few-to-six months or so, I lost Myself. I have been nobody i want to know. My curtains are closed. My life is no longer my own...
i don't know how i came to be this way...other than i can't back down...kinda been the problem my whole long life. If I cannot make the change here, and no one else is willing to...wellllllll... seriously? I am moving on. Fortunately, for me, Michael has agreed.
We are moving onward, upward....i don't need to fight anymore....
I would like to tell you all about things...
once the deals are officially done...
but? until then?
couch surfing is totally worth it all.

still with Martin....surely, you will hear from me soon

fondly, sadly....lovingly....remembered

Today, my very good friend should have turned 39....
I wish I were home, to sit next to him...
I miss my "family" so much right now...
lovelovelove
absolute love

Hey now...did you know?

...this is for you nanaimo crackheads....if you want crack now, come to nicol street pawn and ask where their crack shack is...if they tell you they don't know what you mean? don't believe them.
for anyone else out there who wants to fight the good fight? call nicol street pawn at (250) 716-1674 (block your number or use a payphone, if you feel the need) and tell them you know their rental is a crackshack.
every little bit helps
please and thank you

still living in the church of Martin.

Did you know our new mayor supports BSL? I call that BS!!!

) NANAIMO KENNEL CLUB
Is pleased to present a public forum on“Putting a Muzzle on Dog BITE Incidents in your Community” And “Responsible Dog Ownership”Speaker: Bill Bruce, Director of Animal Services and Bylaws, Calgary DATE: Wednesday, September 23, 2009LOCATION: Beban Park AuditoriumTIME: 7:00 pm to 9:00 pmCOST: No charge to attend If you love dogs and have them in your life, you need to attend this forum to find out what may lie ahead....Find out why the most common "knee-jerk" actions, and traditional bylaws DO NOT work, and discover a role model that has a proven track record that DOES work. Learn about possible dog bylaw changes, bite and muzzling issues and much more. Learn about the dog bylaws implemented in Calgary by Mr. Bruce and why they are among the most successful in North America. Responsible dog ownership and how it affects you and your life, how it impacts on your city, your home and most importantly your dogs. Mr. Bruce will be coming to Nanaimo to share his expertise and knowledge on this important subject with us. As part of the Canadian Kennel Club’s encouragement for Responsible Dog Ownership and RDOG walks being held all across Canada, the NKC invites you to attend this topical and worthwhile presentation.


















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Come and support the NKC on Wednesday, September 23, 2009 for a presentation by Bill Bruce from Calgary.
Mr. Bruce is the Director of Animal Services and Bylaws for the city of Calgary. Calgary has one of the most successful dog bylaw programs in North America.

Please feel free to print and post this flyer, forward to all your friends and neighbors. Everyone will benefit from attending this evening.

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NANAIMO KENNEL CLUB
Is pleased to present a public forum on
“Putting a Muzzle on Dog BITE Incidents in your Community”
And
“Responsible Dog Ownership”

Speaker: Bill Bruce, Director of Animal Services and Bylaws, Calgary

DATE: Wednesday, September 23, 2009
LOCATION: Beban Park Auditorium
TIME: 7:00 pm to 9:00 pm
COST: No charge to attend

If you love dogs and have them in your life, you need to attend this forum to find out what may lie ahead....
Find out why the most common "knee-jerk" actions, and traditional bylaws DO NOT work,
and discover a role model that has a proven track record that DOES work.
Learn about possible dog bylaw changes, bite and muzzling issues and much more.

Learn about the dog bylaws implemented in Calgary by Mr. Bruce and why they are among the most successful in North America. Responsible dog ownership and how it affects you and your life, how it impacts on your city, your home and most importantly your dogs. Mr. Bruce will be coming to Nanaimo to share his expertise and knowledge on this important subject with us.

As part of the Canadian Kennel Club’s encouragement for Responsible Dog Ownership and RDOG walks being held all across Canada, the NKC invites you to attend this topical and worthwhile presentation.






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http://lassiegethelp.blogspot.com/2007/08/dangerous-breeds-dog-bite-statistics.html

Get real...and? BSL? Bullshit Splains Lots(Lucy).

http://saveourdogs.net/2009/08/09/the-calgary-model-for-success/
(must be government or something that this just does not appear automatically as a link...! but???? copy and paste, please. it really is so easy!!!!) And so very, very important.

the answer...not that i have any questions.

it's been like this....

on every front....so please, please....bear with me.

seriously....

if music was religion... and how it makes you feel....
like something better is definitely out there....
waiting to take us home...
ALL of us...
i would convert.
or commit.
to something.
somewhere.