i think i'm happy

it'll be some time to get back to you...
we sold our house...without another to move into right away...our household is in storage and in about 4 days, the computer will be, too. we found another place but it isn't available right now.
we're moving to a quiet street, to a quiet house, a tiny house(we must then get rid of much our accumulated clutter, thank goodness), with a private yard....and though i know it's too early to say such things, i do believe we're gonna be alright...that everything is going to be alright. we are making plans...life affirming plans...together.
despite the coming month of homelessness starting(EEK) Saturday....
so look for an update late-ish November....until then, take good care.
and, in case you were wondering? we are STILL going to see John Prine saturday night...are you jealous?

is anybody still here with me???

Yeah, i know, i haven't been around...haven't posted, haven't commented....although the summer has been beyond gorgeous(with plenty of times for swims and camping), and i have participated in some of it.... mostly, this summer, has made me more miserable than any grey and wet and windy fall and winter ever has. In the past few-to-six months or so, I lost Myself. I have been nobody i want to know. My curtains are closed. My life is no longer my own...
i don't know how i came to be this way...other than i can't back down...kinda been the problem my whole long life. If I cannot make the change here, and no one else is willing to...wellllllll... seriously? I am moving on. Fortunately, for me, Michael has agreed.
We are moving onward, upward....i don't need to fight anymore....
I would like to tell you all about things...
once the deals are officially done...
but? until then?
couch surfing is totally worth it all.

still with Martin....surely, you will hear from me soon

fondly, sadly....lovingly....remembered

Today, my very good friend should have turned 39....
I wish I were home, to sit next to him...
I miss my "family" so much right now...
lovelovelove
absolute love

Hey now...did you know?

...this is for you nanaimo crackheads....if you want crack now, come to nicol street pawn and ask where their crack shack is...if they tell you they don't know what you mean? don't believe them.
for anyone else out there who wants to fight the good fight? call nicol street pawn at (250) 716-1674 (block your number or use a payphone, if you feel the need) and tell them you know their rental is a crackshack.
every little bit helps
please and thank you

still living in the church of Martin.

Did you know our new mayor supports BSL? I call that BS!!!

) NANAIMO KENNEL CLUB
Is pleased to present a public forum on“Putting a Muzzle on Dog BITE Incidents in your Community” And “Responsible Dog Ownership”Speaker: Bill Bruce, Director of Animal Services and Bylaws, Calgary DATE: Wednesday, September 23, 2009LOCATION: Beban Park AuditoriumTIME: 7:00 pm to 9:00 pmCOST: No charge to attend If you love dogs and have them in your life, you need to attend this forum to find out what may lie ahead....Find out why the most common "knee-jerk" actions, and traditional bylaws DO NOT work, and discover a role model that has a proven track record that DOES work. Learn about possible dog bylaw changes, bite and muzzling issues and much more. Learn about the dog bylaws implemented in Calgary by Mr. Bruce and why they are among the most successful in North America. Responsible dog ownership and how it affects you and your life, how it impacts on your city, your home and most importantly your dogs. Mr. Bruce will be coming to Nanaimo to share his expertise and knowledge on this important subject with us. As part of the Canadian Kennel Club’s encouragement for Responsible Dog Ownership and RDOG walks being held all across Canada, the NKC invites you to attend this topical and worthwhile presentation.


















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NANAIMO KENNEL CLUB
Is pleased to present a public forum on
“Putting a Muzzle on Dog BITE Incidents in your Community”
And
“Responsible Dog Ownership”

Speaker: Bill Bruce, Director of Animal Services and Bylaws, Calgary

DATE: Wednesday, September 23, 2009
LOCATION: Beban Park Auditorium
TIME: 7:00 pm to 9:00 pm
COST: No charge to attend

If you love dogs and have them in your life, you need to attend this forum to find out what may lie ahead....
Find out why the most common "knee-jerk" actions, and traditional bylaws DO NOT work,
and discover a role model that has a proven track record that DOES work.
Learn about possible dog bylaw changes, bite and muzzling issues and much more.

Learn about the dog bylaws implemented in Calgary by Mr. Bruce and why they are among the most successful in North America. Responsible dog ownership and how it affects you and your life, how it impacts on your city, your home and most importantly your dogs. Mr. Bruce will be coming to Nanaimo to share his expertise and knowledge on this important subject with us.

As part of the Canadian Kennel Club’s encouragement for Responsible Dog Ownership and RDOG walks being held all across Canada, the NKC invites you to attend this topical and worthwhile presentation.






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http://lassiegethelp.blogspot.com/2007/08/dangerous-breeds-dog-bite-statistics.html

Get real...and? BSL? Bullshit Splains Lots(Lucy).

http://saveourdogs.net/2009/08/09/the-calgary-model-for-success/
(must be government or something that this just does not appear automatically as a link...! but???? copy and paste, please. it really is so easy!!!!) And so very, very important.

the answer...not that i have any questions.

it's been like this....

on every front....so please, please....bear with me.

seriously....

if music was religion... and how it makes you feel....
like something better is definitely out there....
waiting to take us home...
ALL of us...
i would convert.
or commit.
to something.
somewhere.

who am i?

seriously, has gospel ever been this good?
AND? I still hate the johns and the drug dealers....and yes, even the crackwhores... but i am human. for now.

maybe we have too many people.........

Goodbye, John Hughes.

All us kids from the 80's will miss your voice... we think you kind of "got us"
lovelovelove
peaceout.

sleep well and sound.

it's been something else lately

i've been somewhere else lately....
these past months are some of the hardest times...and it's hard to write about it. i hate whiners. not allowed in my family. there was no room for it. unless you're on your deathbed? don't call in sick. bleeding? can it be bandaged here at home? just how high is that temperature? i can't take this day of work to make it better. get dressed...go to school. don't say anything about it. you're fine.
it's conditioning.
even now, it's hard to overcome.
it's been a long, hard time.
i am tired.
eem-er is flagging a bit already. sleeping lots. breaking my heart.
work seems harder.
home is difficult. at it's best sometimes.
i miss ease
laughter
i remember plans to get out of here.
to the mountains.
to quietude.
but i think i am the only one who remembers.
been too crazy on the street trying to make things better.
just makes thing worse....

as i have said once or twice before...
i have an overwhelming need to "go home"
but don't know where that is

camp dog

deliciously dirty....
how much i love summer....

sometimes the music says it better....

Ben Harper here

I can change the world

With my own two hands

Make a better place

With my own two hands

Make a kinder place

Oh-

with my

Oh- with my own two hands

With my own

Oh- with my own two hands

With my own

With my own two hands

I can make peace on earth

With my own two hands

And I can clean up the earth

Oh- with my own two hands

And I can reach out to you

Oh- with my own two hands

With my own

With my own two hands

Oh- with my own

Oh- with my own two hands

I'm gonna make it a brighter place(with my own)

I'm gonna make it a safer place(with my own)

I'm gonna help the human race(with my own)(with my own two hands)

Now I can hold you

With my own two hands

And I can comfort you

With my own two hands

But you got to use

Use your own two hands

Use your own

Use your own two hands

Use your own two hands

And with our own

With our own two hands

With our

With our

With our own two hands

Oh- with my own

With my own two hands

I'm gonna make it a brighter place(with my own)

I'm gonna make it a safer place(with my own)I'm gonna help the human race(with my own)

Oh- make it a brighter place(with my own)

I can hold you(with my own)

And I can comfort you(with my own)

But you got

You got

You got

You got

You got

You got

You got to use

Oh- use your own

Oh- use your own

Lord

But you got

You got

You got

You got

You got to use - use

Use your own

Use your own

Use your own

Use your own

Use your own

Use your own

Use your own

Use your own

Use your own

Use your own

* i don't have any words of my own right now....for a while, for some time now... or, at least i can't articulate them. bear with me.

thought i knew ya....

When we met I was wide eyed city boy
Singin in the streets to feed my hope and joy
We had mad lovin and so fast was our flame
When it went out you got so mad
Talkin trash bout me
Comin round at me
Making a tale of fool’s gold my reputation
Little miss sunshine’s who I met that day
When I walked out it felt like a hurricane
Thought I knew ya
Like I could see right through ya
But the look in your eyes took me by surprise
And I lost control
Thought I knew ya
Like I had a direct line to ya
But I was wrong
Then I caught a shooting a star living photograph
A Buddhist hipster from the purple skies of LA
The ground would shake all understanding now
As I was so smitten with her suede
It went from screamin oh baby
To see you later maybe
I aint laughin now how the tables turn
Her fine print swiftly stole away
I’ll see you in the next life baby namaste
Thought I knew ya
Thought I could see right through ya
What a surprise to open your eyes
And find a hole in your soul
I thought I knew ya
Like I had a direct line to some power greater than myself
So I walked down to the Someday Café
To get my cup o coffee for the day
But they tore it down andPut up another bank of the USA
Where my paradise used to be
I thought I knew ya
Thought I knew myself too yeah
The chink in the wall
I scratched it only yesterday
I thought I knew ya
But my lines were rusted through yeah
But to think is wrong but to sing is right
So meet me at the bridge tonight
To see me reflection in the pond
To wonder what’s a goin on beyond
What I’m tryin to say just won’t come out
But I long to hear you say...............

hallelujah

it's been a difficult time, and tough to write...

but i am finding peace here, too....and want to tell you all about...and will....soon enough.
i am reading along with you all....i am here, trying to make a rational thought or two, communing with you all while not commenting....conserving my energy, maybe.
also busy with work, life, hikes, dogs, desires, etc....although there are more hours in the day during these precious summer months, that does not mean those extra hours will be devoted to blogs...there are swimming holes to swim, raspberries to pick, trails to traverse, picnics to devour, and things to be done....as well as words to find.
peace out

it's not that i don't have anything to say...

it's just that i don't know where to begin............