Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Rest In Peace, Mr. Vonnegut

I lost a hero tonight...thank you for the stories, Mr. Vonnegut. You rocked my world. You made me think. You made me laugh through the tears. You made visiting the Galapagos Islands a lifelong dream of mine. You gave the world "Slaughterhouse Five", "God Bless You, Mr. Rosewater" and "Breakfast of Champions"...you gave us Kilgore Trout. Thank you, thank you. Peaceful Dreams, Mr. Vonnegut. I will miss you and your words...your works.
Novelist Kurt Vonnegut dies at age 84
By CHRISTIAN SALAZAR, Associated Press Writer NEW YORK - Kurt Vonnegut, the satirical novelist who captured the absurdity of war and questioned the advances of science in darkly humorous works such as "Slaughterhouse-Five" and "Cat's Cradle," died Wednesday. He was 84.
Vonnegut, who often marveled that he had lived so long despite his lifelong smoking habit, had suffered brain injuries after a fall at his Manhattan home weeks ago, said his wife, photographer Jill Krementz.
The author of at least 19 novels, many of them best-sellers, as well as dozens of short stories, essays and plays, Vonnegut relished the role of a social critic. He lectured regularly, exhorting audiences to think for themselves and delighting in barbed commentary against the institutions he felt were dehumanizing people.
"I will say anything to be funny, often in the most horrible situations," Vonnegut, whose watery, heavy-lidded eyes and unruly hair made him seem to be in existential pain, once told a gathering of psychiatrists.
A self-described religious skeptic and freethinking humanist, Vonnegut used protagonists such as Billy Pilgrim and Eliot Rosewater as transparent vehicles for his points of view. He also filled his novels with satirical commentary and even drawings that were only loosely connected to the plot. In "Slaughterhouse-Five," he drew a headstone with the epitaph: "Everything was beautiful, and nothing hurt."
But much in his life was traumatic, and left him in pain.
Despite his commercial success, Vonnegut battled depression throughout his life, and in 1984, he attempted suicide with pills and alcohol, joking later about how he botched the job.
His mother had succeeded in killing herself just before he left for Germany during World War II, where he was quickly taken prisoner during the Battle of the Bulge. He was being held in Dresden when Allied bombs created a firestorm that killed an estimated tens of thousands of people in the city.
"The firebombing of Dresden explains absolutely nothing about why I write what I write and am what I am," Vonnegut wrote in "Fates Worse Than Death," his 1991 autobiography of sorts.
But he spent 23 years struggling to write about the ordeal, which he survived by huddling with other POW's inside an underground meat locker labeled slaughterhouse-five.
The novel, in which Pvt. Pilgrim is transported from Dresden by time-traveling aliens from the planet Tralfamadore, was published at the height of the Vietnam War, and solidified his reputation as an iconoclast.
"He was sort of like nobody else," said Gore Vidal, who noted that he, Vonnegut and Norman Mailer were among the last writers around who served in World War II.
"He was imaginative; our generation of writers didn't go in for imagination very much. Literary realism was the general style. Those of us who came out of the war in the 1940s made it sort of the official American prose, and it was often a bit on the dull side. Kurt was never dull."
Vonnegut was born on Nov. 11, 1922, in Indianapolis, a "fourth-generation German-American religious skeptic Freethinker," and studied chemistry at Cornell University before joining the Army.
When he returned, he reported for Chicago's City News Bureau, then did public relations for General Electric, a job he loathed. He wrote his first novel, "Player Piano," in 1951, followed by "The Sirens of Titan," "Canary in a Cat House" and "Mother Night," making ends meet by selling Saabs on Cape Cod.
Critics ignored him at first, then denigrated his deliberately bizarre stories and disjointed plots as haphazardly written science fiction. But his novels became cult classics, especially "Cat's Cradle" in 1963, in which scientists create "ice-nine," a crystal that turns water solid and destroys the earth.
Many of his novels were best-sellers. Some also were banned and burned for suspected obscenity. Vonnegut took on censorship as an active member of the PEN writers' aid group and the
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His characters tended to be miserable anti-heros with little control over their fate. Pilgrim was an ungainly, lonely goof. The hero of "God Bless You, Mr. Rosewater" was a sniveling, obese volunteer fireman.
Vonnegut said the villains in his books were never individuals, but culture, society and history, which he said were making a mess of the planet.
"We probably could have saved ourselves, but we were too damned lazy to try very hard ... and too damn cheap," he once suggested carving into a wall on the Grand Canyon, as a message for flying-saucer creatures.
He retired from novel writing in his later years, but continued to publish short articles. He had a best-seller in 2005 with "A Man Without a Country," a collection of his nonfiction, including jabs at the Bush administration ("upper-crust C-students who know no history or geography") and the uncertain future of the planet.
He called the book's success "a nice glass of champagne at the end of a life."
In recent years, Vonnegut worked as a senior editor and columnist at "In These Times." Editor Joel Bleifuss said he had been trying recently to get Vonnegut to write something more for the magazine, but was unsuccessful.
"He would just say he's too old and that he had nothing more to say. He realized, I think, he was at the end of his life," Bleifuss said.
Vonnegut, who had homes in Manhattan and the Hamptons in New York, adopted his sister's three young children after she died. He also had three children of his own with his first wife, Ann Cox, and later adopted a daughter, Lily, with his second wife, the noted photographer Jill Krementz.
Vonnegut once said that of all the ways to die, he'd prefer to go out in an airplane crash on the peak of Mount Kilimanjaro. He often joked about the difficulties of old age.
"When Hemingway killed himself he put a period at the end of his life; old age is more like a semicolon," Vonnegut told The Associated Press in 2005.
"My father, like Hemingway, was a gun nut and was very unhappy late in life. But he was proud of not committing suicide. And I'll do the same, so as not to set a bad example for my children."

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

....at last.........

It's warming up around here finally...kind of.....a little.....the snakes are out again, making more snakes. Spring is in the air. It's not the Spring we're used to, that's for sure. We still have the pellet stove on for heat...and we have some more inclement weather in the forecast for the coming week...but today is glorious and blue, if not warm. Found a leaf on the walk the other day and got lost for a bit. That hasn't happened in a while, so it seems I am finally coming back, too.
This long, grey, cold, snowy, wet winter spiced with the ongoing neighbourhood issues and losing Michael's father really knocked the wind out of our sails. And it isn't done yet. We still don't have a definite plan on what we will be doing with our home.


This limbo state is hard to deal with. I want to start working on some projects around here if we are staying...time's a wasting, but don't feel the urge to start them if we are not staying. It's all personal touches the next owner may not appreciate...and maybe it's not too late to put in the peach tree this year, but probably.





All the same, it was nice to get lost for a while. I missed this part of myself the past few months. Of course, the deluge of rain the past while has made it harder to enjoy walkies or photography. So it's been a slow start to the season. One step forward, two steps back. My flower gardens out front are taking off, though, and my raspberries are sending out new growth, as well as the blueberries. Mmmmm mmmmm.

Time to wake the princess for a walk in the sunlight....better bundle up, though.





Sunday, April 08, 2007

"Hotgogs" and Hayrides

Well, it was off to one of my favorite places this past weekend... jeepgrrrl , her son, and I borrowed a small child, aethan, on Saturday and headed out to Shady Mile Farm Market for the Easter Egg Hunt...and to pet the animals. You know how I love to pet those goats! These were the tickets...for the hayride to the Easter Egg hunting grounds...I swear. And, they give you a cup! It's to hold the eggs, but for half a moment there, I was really excited about what we would find in that field...little pastel coloured bottles of beer nestled in the tall grasses, surrounded by little chocolate eggs. Oh Happy Day.
We waited in line for two cycles of the tractor before boarding the hayride. We spent the meantime looking at the little easter chicks, feeding goats, watching Spring Fever and Mother Nature come together in a frenzy of lovesick rabbits, sharing "hotgogs" with mustard and ketchup from the bbq, and then it was time to load up...


and we were off on an adventure...a hayride behind a real-life tractor, with our boy in the front row...you should have seen his grin! But that's for his mom to show you on her page, if she wants. I have a no-faces policy here.

And off to a field of chocolate eggs and a glimpse of the Easter Bunny in the woods behind....very exciting!



And what is a trip to Shady Mile without a picture of the new arrivals? Isn't he deliciously heartbreaking? Don't you just want to take him home?!? I WANT A GOAT. I do.




And the other new arrivals making their debut as well. I am melting. Gooey-ness in my veins. Ain't Life grand?
Happy Easter, everyone.





Friday, April 06, 2007

father and son?

You tell me... but I do say....
the very sexiest Bond...................ever.....wow. Crush list both of them. How many is that now, anyone?

Thursday, April 05, 2007

Hey you!!!!

Yeah, you! To the OWNER of 54 Gillespie Street, the renters who just moved or the people you hired to clean up your property(which still looks trashed) when you kick someone out!!!!!!! You know it costs only $7.50 to take an entire truckload of garbage to the dump?!? If you took a damage deposit from your renters, you should be able to afford a run to the dump instead of dumping this at Chase River Estuary, you fucking ASSHAT!!!!! You left some mail with the address in the trash, mixed with the empty crack baggies and baby diapers. I don't know what it costs to do a building title search, but I am going to find out...and find out your name, I hope.
Eagles, herons, swans, hawks, bears, rabbits, salamanders, redwing blackbirds, frogs, ducks, Canadian geese and snakes live here AND it is a damn fine dog walking spot. You are an ASSHAT!!!! Repeat ASSHAT. In fact, say it with me ASSHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't believe the effort you took to drive this load of crap in here on these roads....through paint-removing brush, and chassy-grinding ruts. If you put that much effort into being a decent person, no one could match you! But NO, you put the effort into being a total ASSHAT. $7.50. You should be completely ashamed of yourself.


Wednesday, April 04, 2007

not much

Eemer and Duke, her boyfriend...what a lovely couple they make, don't they? Out at Chase River Estuary is one of my dream houses...it looks out over the cattails where the swans nest in the winter, herons are here daily, ducks, eagles, hawks...and, now, in spring? The redwing blackbirds are here, staking out their territories. In fact, there is one in this photo. Can you find him? He is singing a beautiful song, trying to impress a lovely lady.
And on a clear day, you can see all the way to the mainland....


..............and really, I got nothing to talk about today. It's been a quiet around Blogland lately, hasn't it????





Monday, April 02, 2007

My heroes have always been cowboys...

Guess who got tickets to see Willie Nelson in Victoria? Yippur...Michael got us two tickets to see Willie at the end of June...
Woooo Hooooo! I don't know how many times this will make seeing Willie in concert...the only other who compares in sheer volume of dollars spent on concert tickets may be David Bowie...hmmm, maybe they should tour together, eh?
Do you want to know one of my lifelong biggest dreams? Taking a ride on the Honeysuckle Rose. Honest. Not such a grand dream is it? Some folks want to be millionaires and stuff...I just want to take a little ride on the bus, with my dad and Willie Nelson.

Saturday, March 31, 2007

springtime at last

We went out to Piper's Lagoon for a walk the other day. The fawn lilies are like a blanket over everthing. It is gorgeous. Even Eemer can appreciate it. I looked and looked for some Chocolate lilies to show you but couldn't find any yet this year.
But there is more than enough of these Fawn Lilies to fill every frame of the camera.


This park has a little bit of everything...some hills, some beach to search for beach glass, some nice grassy knolls, rabbits for the dogs to scent, eagles flying overhead, big trees, delicate flowers....


Eden-esque.



Remember last time we were here when the tides were so low we could walk right out to Shack Island? Well, Shack Island is an island again.



Emma actually stood still for a good photo! Unheard of, especially with Yuko there to egg her on.






And cherry blossoms on the trees around home, too. Well, time to go run some errands...talk to you later.





Thursday, March 29, 2007

better than cable...

It was a busy day at the crack house over Spanglish yesterday. There had been police here earlier in the day, as well, however I was just plain unprepared for this much excitement on a Wednesday night! Not very long before this came down, I had left a message for the Watch Command that if officers had an extra five minutes here and there, could they possibly just do some drive-bys because it was so busy. I am sure this is not in response to that call, but thank you anyway! Maybe it had nothing to do with anything but THANKS anyway!!!! Thanks. There were many more opportunities for photos, but as some of the five RMCP cars that were there were unmarked and some of the officers appeared to be undercover, I'll contain myself.
I wasn't even aware anything was going on, I happened to look out the window and noticed a large amount of the "regulars" who are flopping above Spanglish hightailing it down the street. That usually means RCMP are around...and they were. In a big way.

Needless to say, high drama ensued. There were people everywhere. Not counting the officers, there were Fire workers and Ambulance workers tending to a very overly medicated woman...whom I have seen selling drugs around here frequently...and hovering around the fringes of all the activity, much of our regular "traffic" in this neighbourhood.
Eventually, the excitement dispersed, the ambulance transported, the Fire Truck and the RCMP left...and merely moments later, there was the lookout guy in the alley...however, these folks are SUPPOSED to be out by the end of the month, according to the building's owner...and it is the 29th today. Cross your fingers.














Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Bowen Park

In a land known for water, it has been an especially wet winter, long and grey, demanding and, well, literally, OVERFLOWING. The past few days have been a little gift.
I don't think I have taken you all to Bowen Park before...it is a beautiful park, very other-worldly, just like you stepped into the pages of a fairy tale and it is right in the middle of Nanaimo. Today the weather is turning cold again, and the clouds are rolling in, but just the other day... the skies were so blue and warm...

And the grass is coming in nicely, overtaking the vast amounts of mud and muck that the long, cold, wet winter left in such quantity.


There is a beautiful Rhododendron Garden at Bowen Park. These are some of the early bloomers.




Rhodies are not one of my favourites, really, but the sheer fact that there is colour in the landscape is something to cheer about. They look so pale and delicate and it is not that warm out yet, really. I worry about them. There are cherry blossoms out, too, but without the warm air, I can't smell them. Last year, in the heat, you could walk down the streets and smell the cherry blossoms...I would just stop under the trees for a moment or two before continuing on, but this year is too chilly to spread that sweet smell of spring.



I don't know what these are...but they are charming, arent they? They are blooming on the ground in the Rhododendron Garden. I'd like some in my yard, if anyone knows the name of these!





Fawn lilies...just one little patch of them at Bowen. Wait until you see the pictures from Piper's Lagoon. These little beauties are blooming like a blanket out there.






Sunlight through the trees. I do so love the West Coast rain forests, the moss, the ferns, the evergreens....when the sun comes up, there is soft green spilling down to a well cushioned floor.

The winter is long and grey here, but all that rain makes this so very lush come the spring(if it every truly arrives). It's a difficult trade-off. I know we west coasters are considered weather wimps. I would be the first to admit my own wimpy-ness, but it is difficult to convey how very grey every aspect of a west coast coast winter is...the amounts of rain, the need for rain gear for a five minute walk around the block, there being no difference between ten a.m. and 3 p.m.










Even the skunk cabbage is a welcome harbinger of Spring for us right now. I don't even mind the smell so much.






And finding a secret poet lurking in the park made my whole day....Who-
ever you are, you are heroic! Thank You!









Tuesday, March 27, 2007

It's been a while....

Wanna come for a walk? Sun three days in a row....not sunny all day, every day, mind you...but three days in a row now, we have had sun. The world seems all over better...a bit. I am behind in photos....this is Harewood Mines walk three days ago. The moss is succulent and lush...."the verdant green," to quote Jane Siberry....I wonder if she will be at the Junos....anyway, the ground beneath our feet is soft, full moss. You could sleep on it without any complaint. It is inches and inches thick here. You couldn't possibly imagine it. I can't fathom it and I am here two or three times a week.
The arbutus groves here on this walk make me ache a bit...I remember being in love with one tree at my grandmother's cabin...a red tree that shed it's skin instead of its leaves. We called her by her other name, "the Madrona. " There was only one. It's still there, though Gramma is long gone. Imagine walking through an entire grove of these things....they are cutting them down by the thousands to make the new highway to Whister for the "greenest" Olympics ever. Isn't that a crying shame? These don't just grow anywhere.

Itsy bitsy mushrooms....


....and again......



Eemer(We call her that more than we call her Emma) in action. She loves the new zip leash...I hate it. She took me down hard with it last night...today I am bruised and have large patches of skin missing from my knees and elbows....but she can RUN for a while....





She can chase Yuko!!!!




And even catch her!





And after a nice long walk and run, it is always good to come home for a snuggle and the paper on the couch....tomorrow(which was yesterday), we walked at Bowen Park and I am not sure if I have ever taken you there before or not. Come on back!







Sunday, March 25, 2007

Musical Tag


Well, Life tagged me this week to tell you all about the top seven songs that I am "groovin' "on lately...however, as you all may or may not recall(ha ha), I am in the midst of Deep Thoughts. In times such as these about the only thing you will find on my cd player at all is....can you guess? Willie Nelson.

All five of my cd spots in my cd player are Willie Nelson right now...

Here's the deal with Willie. He and my father are inseparable to me...when I listen to Willie, I can hear my father. My dad and I are good and glorious now, but not always...the really only great memories I have as a kid that involve my dad involve music. He sings...and sang out loud when times were good. He sounds very much like Willie. He should have been a country singer. He should have been Willie Nelson's best friend. Willie is his hero. For a lot of life?!? Willie Nelson is the only thing my father and I ever had in common. And for that, and for a lot of other reasons, Willie is one of my heroes, too, a man who loves music, all music and doesn't limit himself to one genre...and I feel a lot of comfort and a sense of my place in the world when I listen to him. And? My voice is excellent on a country song, just like my father's and singing makes me feel good...touchstone.
Willie covers lots of my favourite songwriters as well, so I get the distinct pleasure of listening to my favourite songs sung by my favourite singer... songs that are often so tender and heartbreaking that I have to put it on repeat....but if the lyrics don't reach you, what is it all about anyway? And so, as lame as you all may think this is....seven songs sung by Willie Nelson that I have listened to a lot in the past few weeks...

1. You Remain (by David Poythress) featuring Bonnie Raitt , album:(Across the ) Great Divide

2. Hallelujah(by Leonard Cohen ) album: Songbird

3. Amazing_Grace (by John Newton) album: Songbird

4. Graceland(by Paul Simon) album : (Across the )Great Divide

5. Bird_on_the_Wire (byLeonard Cohen) Album: Tower of Power

6. the-maker (by daniellanois ) Album: Teatro.

7. My Own Peculiar Way(by Willie Nelson) Album: Teatro.

So there you have it...and? by the way? Teatro is one of the best albums ever produced....Daniel Lanois is brilliant. And I tag em and cara.

Friday, March 23, 2007

a wee little bit of it

Trust me, our skies don't look like this right now. It tried to snow again today, mixed into the rain. The daffodils are up, the cherry blosssoms are out, but it still looks miserable out there...
and maybe that is, in part, what is going on with me, with us...Michael and I and our place in the world. We have an appointment with the immigration attorney, starting the final processes for me to become a Canadian. We are talking, in guarded tones, of getting hitched this year. It should be a happy time. We should be excited and giddy.
But, it seems we are, all of a sudden, weary of the battles of this neighbourhood, of the constant fight with a certain landlord who, for whatever reasons, has the ability to keep his properties full of drug dealers and drug addicts...it seems that no matter how well the neighbourhood pulls together, it is never enough to turn the tide. How is it possible that one man can make life so very difficult for so many GOOD AND HONEST people?
We don't understand how a city this size has a drug problem this size and a drug enforcement squad of so few. We can't fathom how the population keeps growing but the RCMP doesn't. We can't understand the drive to make a ghetto of the south end of Nanaimo. This is where the history of this town is! Right here.
We don't understand how we can recognize every car that arrives to deal drugs every day, multiple times a day and they are still on the road...every day.
We don't understand how we can be threatened and made to feel unsafe in our homes and there is nothing to be done about it. If we band together and make a big stink, we get much appreciated action for a week or two, but then someone else makes a big stink and we have to start over. We're so tired...and I am sure the RCMP is tired...of us, of the problems, of the lack of manpower, the lack of support.
I love my house. It is everything I could ever have hoped for in a home...every single thing we have put into it, every single plan we have for it is EXACTLY what I have ever wanted in a home in the city. If I had known we would find ourselves here, in this place, I would not have put in my soul. I can't imagine living in another home in Nanaimo. Personally, if I can't have this home, I would just rather move on. Completely. This is the big thing that I have not been able to say. I don't want to give up my home...but I was never a good fighter.
I have other homes in my dreams, but not city homes...and the thought of moving to another home here makes me ache. If I have to move away from this house, I want it to be for another dream come true, not because I have given up. A home on the beach...or life on the road in an Airstream....a cabin in Colorado.
So there it is...a wee little bit of the torment I am in right now. Was it worth the anticipation?